I had such a huge growth spurt for the last couple of months and now I'm in that after lesson mode.  I don't handle the down time well.  I love that rush of new lessons, new books, new experiences, new ideas ... something, anything new!  Now I'm waiting for a wave of inspiration or something to find me but I don't have a focus or an interest right now.  I need to get fired up about something! 

I'm pretty annoyed with myself.  I had five days off in a row and did next to nothing.  It's not that I relaxed or had me time, it's that I just didn't do anything, which was oddly stressful.  I don't have high demands on my time.  I don't have children or a career, I just have a job that I leave a work when I'm not there.  I don't overbook a schedule or run here and there ... I have plenty of time so I wasn't in need of a break or relaxation.  Pretty much if I was any more relaxed I'd be in a coma. 

I am so annoyed by myself that I dreamt last night that I was working with my sister, something we have done many times, and I was a complete whiny idiot to her.  I was so horrible that I decided the only way to explain my poor behavior was to pretend I couldn't remembering doing it and I was ill in some way.  I have to laugh at that dream!  

I thought when the thunderstorms roared through two nights in a row I would be buzzing with electricity and freshness and starting something new.  It's weird that it didn't happen this time.  I tried music ... nope ... I tried flipping to a page in my favorite bibliomancy book ... nope ... I tried a card reading ... nope again.  None of my usual unstuck methods worked this time.  Weird!

I might need a kick in the arse!